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I have gone 32 hours without sleep and here are some thoughts on death and the absurd

I have gone 32 hours without sleep and here are some thoughts on death and the absurd

There's an idea that the best ideas we have come up in our dreams as synthesized versions of our emotions, subconsciousness, and memories. I have gone many an hour without dreaming, so ya know this article is a bad idea and will probably be really terribly written. That being said, the universe is my playground and I DO WHAT I WANT. Enjoy my random non sequiturs and ideas turned into an article

Death; the inevitable leveler of all life. What do we do with this conundrum? "Live life to the fullest?" Sure. Here's the thing though. What does that even mean? I believe that death can be viewed as an incentive to do what you want with your life. I've still never done that, though. Some existentialist beliefs say that life has no meaning—no purpose—whatsoever, and that when we realize this fact we're faced with something absurd and horrifying: "The Absurd". Camus says this: we have 3 options to do if we face The Absurd. 

  1. Go on with life, practically forgetting about the absurd and consuming a belief that life has meaning and purpose. We become happy in our beliefs, and prosper
  2. Suicide
  3. Accept that life has no purpose, and be happy anyways, treasuring a spite so human it appears to almost be laughing at the void

I don't know what to think of Camus' ideas, but I do find them interesting. Life has no meaning, purpose, etc. Why do I feel happiness then? Why was I born? Is there a god? If there is, there MUST be a purpose, right? 

The sheer notion of EXISTENCE is boggling. How do things even exist? Why don't other things exist? What creates the laws of our universe? Maybe that's part of the reason death is confusing for some. Life is like existing, and when we die, eventually, all memories of us will be erased and we will almost cease to exist. What is consciousness? Is it really just bacteria and organisms' evolutionary traits acting in unison to create a brain in a human body which acts based on what has worked in the past? In other words ..... is consciousness just a side-effect of evolution?

What makes something ALIVE? A rock is not alive, and in a world where there is no purpose or meaning, what differentiates conscious beings from inanimate objects? We're all just made of atoms, and as rocks wither and crumble so do civilizations and individual life cycles. What makes us anything special? Why are we important?

I read a graphic novel named "The Sandman" by Neil Gaiman its real good so you should read it. Anyways in this graphic novel we meet the god of dreams, Morpheus aka Murphy aka Dream aka Oneiros aka The Sandman. Anyways, this guy is an Endless, which makes him pretty much above a god. There are many endlesses, including Death, Desire, Despair, Delirium, etc. Dream is unique because of SO MANY REASONS im not going into it. But I bring this up because of the belief of the "collective subconscious" that I know some argue for. They say that if dreams are like electrical currents in our brains, they must take up mass, and that if we have the ability to judge space in dreams then what makes that different than our own reality. Thus, a collective subconscious. I'm highly skeptical of this, and I think dreams are just dreams, but it poses a good point.

I think that maybe we're special because we can dream, and that makes us .... more. More than rocks, mountains, worlds, stars, galaxies. Our consciousness allows us to transcend. Or something. Fuck I'm tired. Goodnight, and sweet dreams :D

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